Just the other day I was reading harambe24’s blog and for the millionth time I was reminded of how clueless I am when it comes to "mdavazo" matters. I couldn’t help noticing how knowledgeable some of you guys are and I hoped you’d be kind enough to impart some of that knowledge to me. I still sincerely hope you will…
My Story
I’m on the other side of 25 yep I’m in my late 20’s and have been alone for the longest time. Winter after freezing cold winter I long for a "blanket with eyes" but I never get one and it’s all my doing. Here’s why…
I was one of those peeps who decided to save herself for the one. Time went by and I changed my mind and decided to be adventurous and explore. Put bluntly I gave in to lust. Trouble is brother man was rather well endowed as in super extra large. The "act" was really painful I would feel like I was being split in half between the buttocks and the bottom of my stomach was on fire. Brother man tried to be sweet and understanding about it and had us try all sorts different positions etc but none of it really worked. The most disastrous was when he had me on top and I didn’t know what to do. He was a terrible kisser as well he used to bite my lips and in the end I decided on a no kissing rule. I kept going back though in the hope that I’ll get over the pain and start enjoying it but in the end I decided that the only thing that would happen would be me ending up very hollow down there with no chance of ever enjoying it with a not so well endowed brother. Thankfully though not much damage was done because my muscles down there are still intact.
My Dilemma
The thing is now at this rather mature age I am very inexperienced when it comes to the bedroom. I am so ashamed and embarrassed by my situation that rejecting has become second nature to me. I always think what if I feel like doing it with a guy and he sees how clueless I am. I mean I don’t even know how to give a proper smooch / deep kiss. So when it comes to such matters I start acting like a 16 year old virgin and in a way I feel I am. I even start acting all shy and nervous. When someone even wants to kiss me I always pull back no matter how badly I want them to kiss me and how badly I want to kiss them back. I get all sweaty and my eyes start twitching and all that.
The Way Forward
This is where you fellow bloggers come in. You see when I was reading harambe24’s blog and seeing how much fun the whole thing is I started thinking maybe there’s still hope. I’ve considered getting myself drunk and just going with the flow but although I do drink I’ve never been drunk in my life (the control freak in me just takes over). That might be dangerous as well considering it could be with someone I don’t know / trust all that well. Bloggers please advise, what makes one good in bed and how do you go about sharpening your skills? How do you handle that dreaded first night? And don’t forget about the kissing bit as well.
Anxiously anticipating your responses...
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