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Okay guys I’m going tell it from the beginning:

I was only 16 years old in high school that I fell into the teenage pregnancy trap and what can I say it happens. Just after discovering that I m preggy my then so called boyfriend and I broke up. Well in all honestly there isn’t much of a boyfriend/girlfriend (love) when you are 16 years old believe me I know.

So anyway, had a strong family support structure then (My mother was there praying to God without ceasing) etc..Few years ago my son came to live me after he has been living with my mother all these years. At first I can honestly confess that I almost lost my mind (Imagine a single woman, having fun, have friends, maybe a boyfriend there and there well life was good). My son came into my life and everything changed, friends disappeared and it was just me and my son. Now it has been 12 years his father has never given me a cent to save his life and mind you this man comes into my sons life as to and when he wishes. And as I mentioned this man probably doesn’t know how old his child is, what grade he is in. Okay before you start thinking why don’t I report him for maintenance here is the thing, the man’s family owns businesses so he claims that he doesn’t have a stable income (By the way he is one of those who drive big cars) just thought I should throw that in.

Throughout the years of growing up and raising my son with the help from my mother, I became a born again Christian and started to learn about forgiveness and I must admit that I eventually decided to let go of all the hatred and anger I had to forgive him and be civil for my sons sake and not to loose the favor of the Lord.

Having said all that: My son and I recently moved into a slightly bigger house, and things are going quite okay for us you know (by God’s Grace and Mercy), My son is growing up and I must say I’m proud of him and everyone else who never gave up on me when times were hard. I m not rich or anything like that, I m just a single mother trying to make a living for me and my son. After loosing more than 3 cell phones, I decided to get my son a fourth one (I pray that he doesn’t loose this one too). Out of excitement he found a need to call his father and give him his number, well to my horror the man has been buying my son airtime everyday and at this moment I am about to loose cause I just don’t get it ( how does he buy him airtime when he cant pay for anything else in his life)

Ohh God knows I am no hater but at some point (I just want to hire the next hit men) to get it over and done with. When my son woke me up at 2am this morning crying sick and I stayed awake all night with him trying to make him feel better at least until this morning when we went to see the doctor I realized that somehow I can either suck it all in and get on with it or give up (which I cant afford to). I have nothing against the man as long he stays away from my family…

So Bloggers how do we just get along for the sake of the child? Because if really I am saying I have forgiven this man why then does it still bother me that he always finds a way of working on my nerves!!!!

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