He saved me!!!! ……. And I’m grateful
Last night 22:30 would have marked the end of my life at only 23. My life didn’t end, I’m still alive because God still wants me to live, he has got a purpose for me and he has given me a second chance.
Yesterday after work I went to spend some time with a friend of mine who stays 5 min from where I stay. I left her house at around 22:20, I drove slowly which I don’t normally do at night and I was listening to a pirated gospel cd (I thot later on, maybe I was being punished, but then I was listening to Ngegazi lemvana siyasindiswa by Sis Ribs, and yes njengoba ngilana igazi lakhe lingisindisile- his blood saved me), as I approached a certain stop sign, I had this bad feeling, wanted to drive back but thought, oh, what the hell, let me just go, what could possibly happen, I mean I have driven in the early hours of the morning before, and besides this area has got security guards patrolling. The strangest thing!!! I didn’t see not one security officer on the road, not even one patrol vehicle!!!!!!! I then looked on my rearview mirror and saw that I was being followed by a white 4 wheel drive car or maybe he was just driving behind me, I told myself that if this car is going to take the same turn as me I’ll just drive straight on and get to the garage and wait there.
I indicated to turn right and he/she turned left, I normally have my gate keys with me but I gave them to my sister in the morning because I knew I was going to be late. I buzzed and waited for my sister to open, normally this takes about 30seconds, yesterday she didn’t open on the first buzz, 2nd and then as I picked up my phone to call her I noticed a Gold citi golf stop behind me and two guys came out with firearms, my first reaction was SCREAM!!!! I did but I don’t know why coz my windows were closed and no one was going to hear me anyway, when I looked one guy was at my window and he said “ Vula” (open) I screamed and I hooted, heaven knows why I did that coz they were going to shoot anytime, but because I pray a living God there was a reason, there was a reason for a lot of things actually which I’ll get on to just now.
Fortunately there is a gal who lives upstairs who was having drinks with friends, as I hooted the second guy came, so now I had two guns aiming at my head!!!! My window was still closed, I think he said vula or I’ll shoot you now, I didn’t open the door, I just opened the window, as I did that I took my foot off the break and because my hand brake was not on I hit the gate and there was a loud bang, people came out of their houses (I just want to say that God is good!!!) when they saw people coming out this guy screamed, give me your bag now, I had my bag on the foot of the passengers, normally I drive with my bag in the boot. They ran with my bag which had everything as you can imagine. I don’t carry my ID with me but yesterday I had it because I needed to do something. They ran away but they left me, my life, simply because God said no!!!!!!!! they pulled they key from the ignition but left the car!!!
Everything that followed I’m sure will not interest you guys. Since the incident the only thing that has been ringing in my head besides those a**holes words is R. Kelly “You saved me” his lyrics might not be the same with the situation but HE saved me!!!!!! I continue living by the quote “Live for today, tomorrow might not come” because it is significant to me in so many ways. I’m going to continue loving as much as I can because life is too short!!!
I’m just seriously f! right now, I’m paranoid, I don’t want to go back to my place, I want to move out, I know this happens everywhere but I just think they will come back for me. I’m scared, jittery. Trauma counseling is being organized for me but I just have this feeling that I won’t get over it!!! I cry every time . I am at work because I don’t want to be at home.
Much love and Peace!!!